{nightmares}

even though i may have nightmares of 

spiders,

mockingjay,

and darkness...

i always have him. here. 

with me. 

all i have to do is find his arm and hold it tight. 

{thank goodness for best friends}

what do you want to do before you die?

many things, really.
but I want to be in a flash dance.
and I want Blake to be in it with me.

like this one.

{doesn't it look like fun?}

what the....?

3:15 am:

Blake: poke, poke, pokes me
"Tara, Tara, Tara, Tara....Tara!" {this is Blake's older sister}

Laura: "what??"

Blake: "There's something living in our bed"

Laura: "...what?? No there isn't."

Blake {after he wakes up}: "Oh....I thought it was a rabbit or something burrowing into our bed, but it was just your thigh."




it ended with us

{laughing all night long}

I had a dream

"Long walks in the dark
Through woods grown behind the park
I asked God who I'm supposed to be
The stars smiled down at me
God answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer and fell asleep"

--Priscilla Ahn

{dream}

i.miss.you.

some days are a lot harder than others.
like today.
don't get me wrong.
i miss you all the time.
but some days, it hurts even more.

i think it's when i dream of you.
like last night when you were holding me,
whispering you love me,
cuddling close.

it felt so real.
and when i woke,
all i wanted was your embrace.
but you're 700 miles away.
and a hug is still 11 days away...

please come visit again tonight.

i love you.


{13}

talks

sometimes after i pray at night
i ask Heavenly Father if i can talk
to my dad.

i tell him about my life--
my plans, my fears, my hopes.

sometimes i fall asleep talking to him.

and sometimes he comes to see me in my dreams.

{papertissue}