home. it's relative.

it's an interesting feeling i get when blake and i come back to California.

the weather here is so much nicer.

it's sunny and warm, welcoming me  home with open arms.

but after the clean clothes are put in drawers,

and the food is in the fridge,

suitcases are put under the bed,

and the toiletries put away...

i feel vacant.

empty.

i'm not sure how but my family makes me whole.

the only way i can fill the gap is to have blake's arms around me.

and let's be honest--we can't do that all the time.

so hello to another busy season.

you leave me with no husband,

{hence a constatnt vacancy}

lots of studying,

and an empty heart.

welcome home.